My refuge

At some point in my existence, i feel the burden of doing and sharing more because i have been given more. I hate it when people think i don't seem to get tired of doing a lot of things because truth is, i do. Even superheroes do. Sometimes i wish i could be insensitive to the needs of others and be a mediocre of all sorts.

To be honest, i am sick of being gifted.. of being highly intellectual. But i have this obsessive-compulsive urge. I can't seem to just lay motionless and pretend to be dumb. I just feel the need to step on the brakes before i burn out. Then last night, i heard these songs playing in my pc while i was on the verge of breaking down. It made me sentimental.. and mental at the same time. In short, it struck me. It's as if God reminded me all of a sudden that He was there willing to listen to me. Ready to hug me at these times when i need a father to turn to. Believe it or not, i just let the tears flow as i fell to my knees contemplating. Try listening to these songs or just reflect on the lyrics. It will sure make you feel relieved especially if you feel pressured. It worked for me..


Warrior is a child

Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing
I'm strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears


They don't know
that I come running home when I fall down
They don't know
who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
Cuz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child


Unafraid because his armor is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I'm amazing I never face retreat
But they don't see the enemies
That lay me at his feet

They don't know
that I come running home when I fall down
They don't know
who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
Cuz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child



Strong Arm

My child I knew you before the world began
I was there everytime you wrote your name on the sand
And lately I know you’ve been through quite a storm
My child I’ve been there since the day you were born

Oh and I rule the wind
Yes, and I calm the sea
And the sun don’t go down until I say it can leave
As sure as my word
I’ll stand here right by your side
And if you’re just too weak to hold on
Remember child, I’m your strong arm



Now people will wonder and they’ll stand amazed
They’ll say you’re a miracle and I will be praised
And even though your problems have been so hard to bear
Just know that I’m with you
There’s no need to despair

Oh and I rule the wind
Yes, and I calm the sea
And the sun don’t go down until I say it can leave
As sure a s my word
I’ll stand here right by your side
And if you’re just too weak to hold on
Remember child, I’m your strong arm

Home

Thinking back when we first met
I remember what you said
You said you’d never leave me
I let go a while of your hand
Built my castle in the sand
But now I’m reaching out again
And I’m not letting go till you

Hold me, mold me
Sometimes I feel so all alone
See I gotta find my way back home
So why don’t you
Shape me, make me, wash me whiter than the snow
I gotta find my way back home

Master, upon my knees I pray
I just wanna be the clay
Put your arms around me
Place my life in your hands
Lord, I know I’m just a man
Know you understand
This time I’m not letting go til you

Anoint me, appoint me
Sometimes I feel so all alone
See I gotta find my way back home
So why don’t you
Chastise me, baptize me
Wash me whiter than the snow
I gotta find my way

Cause I’m lost and alone
I’ve been wandering long enough to know
Humbly I search for you
And I’m not gonna rest until you

Choose me, use me
Sometimes I feel so all alone
I’m on my way back home
So why don’t you
Direct me, bless me
Wash me whiter than the snow
I’m on my way back home