oblationing

i had been busy these past days trying to fix my application for clearance at the university. and while i was going around the campus, i reminisce the good old days.. way back when i was still that naive college freshman.

what had happened to my life was a roller coaster, complete with every twist and turns, ups and downs, and all the vomiting but not from the nausea the ride has brought but from being pregnant at 20 without graduating. we have the liberty to choose the paths we want to follow hence, we have no one to blame for our mishaps. as i again visit the halls i once attended class in, i feel remorse for every day i have wasted not persevering to finish a degree even if it has not got to be in engineering.

however, much as i want to go back, i cannot as i have more pressing things to take care of as working to provide my son's needs. maybe things really do happen for certain reasons, reasons we do not know and yet to be revealed to us in its rightful place and time. destiny has its own way of letting its self be discovered; God has his own way of showing us he has greater plans for us.

the purpose and reasons for my being dropped out of UP has not yet been uncovered. if the that moment comes, i know, i just know, it's going to be the best as what is meant for me..